Typhoon Ondoy

A foreigner asked me some years back , days after a tsunami killed hundreds of thousands of people in  Asia specifically in Thailand, Sri Lanka, India and Indonesia of which one is better to die : war or disaster. I replied disaster. It was a stupid choice. 

I was in Manila on the 26th of September, the day typhoon Ondoy made a landfall.  I was supposed to attend the last Sunday of the bar exam after a couple of years of almost ”animosity” in the field, primarily to take a grasp once more on the atmosphere.  I was one of those trapped along  Quezon Ave.,  Quezon City. I spent the night inside the bus with some people from my former school denied of the usual comfort for travellers. It was a sort of a road trip because we were not able to reach our destination, but not a road trip after all.  The latest count of  casulaties from the National Disaster Coordinating Council  have risen to two hundred forty (240) and still counting, notwithstanding the many individuals,  children and families starving in evacuation areas around Manila.

Fear, however did not engulfed me during the ordeal even when my cellphone ran out of battery and there’s no other way to get informed of what’s happening around than the radio powered by the bus gas, which made us hear the angst, pleas and sobs of the many families and individuals begging for rescue.  Perhaps, this is because i grew up, like many Filipinos, with calamities and disasters.  It has always been a way of life and the “spirit” that i could always surpass whatever the ordeal may bring. Though i was worried a bit when the building on the left side of  the bus we were in, caught fire.  To make the situation panicable, beside the building was a paint station and right behind our bus was a gas tanker while strong winds  made the heavens look like dancing firecrackers as naked faces of barefoot and footless people  keep passing back and forth  the streets  struggling to cross the rapid water breast high some neck high, all day and night long.  I thought these people are, like me, just in a hurry to be home with their love ones and feel safe.  Yet we just cannot move anywhere like other vehicles around us.  It was seemingly a bad omen, whatever the word means.

Two men in wheelchair took shelter in a waiting shed near our space, battling the strong rain and wind with only plastics wrapped around their bodies while hundreds of children were sleeping in the floor covered with cartoons and newspapers along the corregidors of Sto. Domingo church.  We would share the adhacent spots for many hours.  Pasalubongs intended for barristers like cornics and bibingkas were shared to them.

“We were only at the right place at the right time” said one friend.  Our driver was smart enough to locate the proper position of the bus where we would stick for the rest of the night until roads to lead us outside Manila were partially passable.

Climate change or war against another idiology.

Stupidity kills people.

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Thank you President Cory.

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I am grateful I was born a Filipino. I am more grateful I am living in a generation that lived a great woman named Corazon C. Aquino. I take pride to have recollection of live footages about a bloodless revolution in my country,  in my lifetime.  A  story rooted from an eleven year old girl’s first encounter with  political issues (though vague to a young mind) from her brother’s rush and fearful words during lunchtime of August 21, 1983… “tatang, tatang  pinatay dan ni Ninoy” (father, father Ninoy has been assasinated) which resonates in my growing up years and the passionate conversations about  national crucial issues in the family especially with my father in the coming years after that fateful day which I share now with my nephews and nieces who show awesome eagerness to learn and understand the history of their heritage. 

My country’s contribution to all the peace loving people

across the globe is gone.

Thank you dear president for the assurance of the freedom we all yearn.

May you have a good journey. Rest in Peace.

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“barack “

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          

 

 My stepfather Lolo said, “Men take advantage of weakness in other men. They’re just like countries in that way. The strong man takes the weak man’s land. He makes the weak man work in his fields. If the weak man’s woman is pretty, the strong man will take her. Which would you rather be? Better to be strong. If you can’t be strong, be clever and make peace with someone who’s strong. But always better to be strong yourself. Always.”

Source: Dreams from My Father, by Barack Obama, p. 37 Aug 1, 1996

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One of the few films i watched more than five (5) times, based on a 1991 best sellling authobiography of the same title, “I Dreamed of Africa (2002)”, (Kuki Gallman)  always brings me back to where my heart longs to rest…..to the beats, the chimes and the wilderness and perhaps to where a not so fascinating life could be.

cling……cling…… back to my world, my reality… my cold books for another feat.  Hopefully this time, to adhere  for the right reason.

I yield to a mantra that no one should not be so consummated to anything that one cannot walk away with in life  or so i thought.   But i guess i now succumb to the  exception of the rule.

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Mamang

She’s more sad than me each time i fall yet more strong than anyone else each lift i needed.

Thank you always mamang.

Mother’s day is everyday as i see you live your life.

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“Dance With My Father”

He is the man in my thought during the four grueling Sundays of September 2007. Still vivid, I remember I would cover my face with my two palms during the fifteen minutes for all the eight law subjects which was the alloted time to relax, consolidate ideas, arranged the approaches prepared a week before each and every sunday… before the examiners allow us to open the question sheet and jot down the best ideas we could possibly write no matter how crocked they would be. I used the fifteen minutes to talk to him and asked him wherever he is to stay with me, tap my back, cover me with strength and courage to deal with the subject prescribed for each and every moment. I was crying without tears during those times, grasping for the embrace of a ghost who exist deep in my heart…. scared, nervous and anxious, bravery to overcome such was my weapon… and i survived… (only to deal with another battle, months after… though that’s another story).

 

He patiently taught me how to move the pawn, the rook, the knight, the bishop, the queen, the king…… and the tactics and strategies to stalemate the opponent. The first stuff i tried to master was an old dilapidated chess book which my young mind could hardly comprehend. He laughed at my moves… I never defeated him… Until i eventually got tired thinking and analyzing the wisdom behind.

He taught me to pronounce words correctly to come up with the correct tone. He taught me the first note. But I never sang a good song. His forte were that of Matt Monroe and Nat King Cole…. he sang many Ilocano old songs. I could have recorded them all. I miss terribly his voice..

He taught me how to appreciate current events, history and geography long before my school teacher’s patterned discussions in class during my primary years… No wonder I got my best final exams in Social Studies in Grade School… perfect score. I would lost track in the years to come…

I would see him dissolve into nothingness as i grew up. Living a life that he wanted, i always remember his lines . . . life is short…. and so he did. However, his eloquent decisions prevailed that would eventually influence into what think i am now as a person.

During casual conversations I initiated with a seventy two year old beautiful lady i fondly call Tita Tere, (another beautiful soul who i stayed with during the pre bar review), she told me the reason why she did not get married. Well travelled as she is, of all the numerous men who courted her here and abroad, she said she never found the character she was looking for in a man… the kindness and gentleness of her father. . . i do not intend to subscribe to her pattern though, but maybe her standard is every woman’s honest longing..

Last January seven, my family celebrated his sixth death anniversary… It’s been five christmases without the man i call my father.

My bar examination is dedicated to him.

 

 

 

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